G is for...

I can't believe she's one. I can not believe it. Yet it is true. Everyday she grows up a little more. Yesterday she insisted on feeding herself with a spoon, and guess what, she actually got three bites in her mouth.
We all adore her. We wondered about J liking her for a long time there but even he has fallen victim to her charm. We were able to celebrate her birthday with a lot of wonderful people. Really we are so lucky to know such great people. We missed our family members and wish they all could have been there.
A lot is going on in our lives right now but I don't feel like writing about it so I'll end by saying I love my family, my friends, my faith, and my life. Cheerio darlings, cheerio!

I wrote a poem, don't judge.

I was laying in bed late one night this week and I composed this poem after trying to decide how I was feeling at the time. Don't judge. Here she is...

Oh vim, dear friend
where have you gone? 
Vigor has run off too. 
All that is left is a lump on a log, 
a sigh, 
and a worn out shoe. 

M & M

epic pouty face today when I asked  him to make a face

My little sister got engaged on Wednesday! I can't believe it. I knew it was coming, we've all been rooting for it, but I find it hard to believe that she is old enough to get married (which is odd considering I was two years + younger then she is when I did.). She and her man Melvin both seem so young to me , perhaps that means I'm getting old.

As a family we were driving home from picking up Adam from work, Adam and I were talking about her engagement, marriage, etc. At one point I said "J., Maggie's getting married." J.'s response was so cute and a little unexpected and very different from his cousins. He said with some worry in his voice "I don't want her to get married. I want her to stay like she is." We asked him why he wanted that and  quickly realized that he thought it meant Maggie would change in a bad way (apparently we haven't talked about love and marriage very much). We told him that marriage was a really good thing, and that Maggie would still be Maggie she would just live with Melvin, just like mama and dad. He liked that.

I'm so excited for Maggie and Melvin. Marriage can be so wonderful and I'm so grateful for mine. I have every confidence that they will be grateful for their's also.

Hooray for the happy couple! Hooray for another brother! Hooray for eternal marriage!

dream houses

I have this re-occuring dream (though it leans more towards nightmare than dream) there is always a house that is either perched in the trees, on a steep slope, or some other precarious foundation. Inevitably I am in this house and if I move even a step too far to the left or right the house begins to lean. I can actually feel the sinking feeling in my stomach. I quickly have to right the wrong and get everyone in the right place again (sometimes Adam and the kids are in the house too, which makes it even harder to keep upright). The dream consists of trying to keep the house in balance. I wake up feeling uneasy.

Last night I had the dream again. This time the worst happened. I lost the war of balance and the house fell. The crazy thing about it was that the world didn't end. The house fell, nobody died. The house fell. I failed. The house fell but in the dream we were going to lift it with cranes. Life kept going. I was not in control but things would still be o.k.

I tend to overanalyze. So, this dream has me thinking about my life, wondering if a bomb is going to drop. I told Adam and he said that maybe it meant I was going to go insane (yeah, thanks for that one babe.) I really don't think that was the point of the dream... if there even was a point. I think it's my mind's way of saying "Katie, you can't control everything but it will be alright." I can't control how people act. I can't control what people think. I can't control natural disasters. I can't prevent people from getting hurt. I can't make other people happy and I don't HAVE to. The house can fall. Mistakes can and will be made. Life will not end.

Silly boy.

Katie: "You're my favorite little boy."
J.: "You're my favorite little mama."

to you,

love,
us

an account in list form and a visual

• Moved apartments
• Added a new member to the family (G on May 10th)
• Went on a trip to Enchanted Forest
• Visited family in Utah
• Had some birthdays
• Conquered the toilet (About time, Adam! Just kidding. Way to go J!)
• Hung out with amazing people
• Missed some amazing people
• Made, bought, and ate delicious food
• Witnessed little miracles and blessings
• Cried some
• Tried new things 
• Fulfilled some dreams


Really it's been a beautiful year.